It has been so long since I logged into my blog that I almost forgot the password! That's pretty bad. Obviously I have not taken the time or the effort to write lately.   I've honestly considered whether or not I should just quit blogging all together.  Sometimes I really love to write and I feel so open and eager to share with you my struggles and what God has done in my life.  But other times, (lately) I kind of feel like being closed off and anything but transparent.  It isn't easy to show you my pain and my weaknesses again and again. But if there is one thing I know for sure, it is that God is faithful to finish what He starts.  He makes beautiful things out of the dust, and out of us.  Sometimes we don't feel like doing what He calls us to do, but are still called to be obedient regardless.  I have learned that my feelings are completely unreliable, and they cannot see past my current circumstances.  I truly believe that me doing this blog was because of God's leading and it would be a mistake for me to quit it in the middle of the story, before He is truly glorified and before whatever He wants to accomplish through it has been accomplished. I have been told that this blog has touched some of your lives and your kindness and love for us have certainly touched mine.  So those reasons are my motivation to keep truckin', even when it is hard. I'm going to try and do a better job of blogging more often just about fun, random stuff!  Not that my life is terribly interesting or exciting.  But it is so good for me to think about and write about all the good things in it none the less!  

The latest news is that I will be going to an infertility specialist in Little Rock in mid-January.  After our consultation, we will consider & pray about our options, which will most likely include and might even be limited to in-vitro fertilization. We hoped and believed that we would never get to the point, but it is now where we find ourselves.  In the meantime,  we are going to do our best to focus on each other and on enjoying this wonderful holiday season! What a perfect time to regroup and remember what all God has done for us, like coming into this world at all.  God humbled Himself to the extent of becoming a human, being born in a barn, living a hard life and dying an excruciating death all because He loved me and wanted me to be His child.  Same with you. When I really stop to think about it, it is truly amazing!  I want to keep a proper perspective of His birth and death and not let it just become a nice story like it so easily can.  

I hope everyone reading this has a wonderful Christmas season!  May your days be low in stress and high in joy.  As usual, I want to leave you with a song :)  This one gives me chills. All I can say is Hallelujah!